Monday, December 21, 2009

The Gift of Coming


From Musical Chairs in the snow Friday...










...to the beautiful drive to Balan on Sunday...









...to the windowless tenements without electricity or plumbing that house the families we will be visiting...









...to the food packages waiting for distribution today... Welcome to Balan!


Location: Guest house in Balan, Romania, about 9pm on Sunday, the 20th of December.

I promised to edit my last post, filling in the gaps. Unfortunately, I was also promised internet access here, and so far it is not working. So since I cannot edit what I wrote, I will rewrite it and post it, doing my best to remember what I wanted to tell you. I also just organized oodles of photos, so I'll try to post them online at the same time as this post. (Ok, just got internet connection--I have time to post this because I wrote it last night, but photos on Picasa will have to come later, don't miss the photos and highlights from the previous post if you have not already looked... )

Balan is an old mining town that used to be booming; after the mine closed, the story changed. You will see the communist block-tenement buildings in my pictures, some without windows and electricity, yet inhabited by those who have nowhere else to live. We will be distributing food here during the next few days, and in a neighboring town. It is bitter cold here--how I pray for the warmth of Christ to saturate this place, tucked away in the beautiful, snow-covered and fir-populated mountains and valleys. We drove several hours through this beautiful landscape today, and for me it was a restful afternoon after a joyful celebration at church this morning, the kids using their energy to remind us to settle for nothing less than TRUE life! I even got a nap after we arrived, and this evening has been full of a quiet reflection.

My reflection is nestled in the memory of the past few days. As planned, my college-friend, K., arrived on Thursday with her friend, T. I had not seen K. in a long time, and her semester in Lithuania provided a closer departure point for a visit, so when T. joined her for some backpacking, a visit to Romania took place, too. I am glad it did!

Unexpectedly, I was able to pick them up at the airport in Targu Mures, and only a slight misunderstand with a cab driver hinted to them the adventure that could have been in store for them had they tried to find their way to Sighisoara on their own. But I made sure they were not wanting for adventure; within a couple of hours of their arrival in Sighisoara, they joined our team singing in a Christmas concert in the Orthodox Church! How is that for "orientation"? After orientation, we put them to work, and we measured socks till midnight, chatting and laughing and catching up. We then decided sleep would help prepare them for the next day's "field training."

Friday morning was our staff meeting, and afterward we finished up the socks. Then the girls joined me in the neighborhood, inviting kids to that afternoon's program in town. We were interrupted by a summons back to the base, for a load of firewood had arrived. So we made a line and put those tough American girls to work unloading wood and stacking for the cold days to come. That did not really leave us any time for lunch, so we grabbed a sandwich and hurried into town. We had to try to prepare a vacant lot for the program, but our two snow-shovels were no match for a field of snow, even in the hands of a determined K. So instead, we played musical chairs! We laughed, giggled, guffawed, chortled, chuckled, and cackled as pedestrians walked by, disturbed by delight. I was the live radio, and my voice echoed off the buildings until it would be interrupted by an explosion of hilarity when someone failed to find a seat and landed in the snow! Meanwhile, we were waiting for the plow that I thought I had arranged, only to discover that my Romanian skills had not been up to the challenge and no plow would come.

So we began the program, in conjunction with several churches and organizations, and it was like a movie. Large snow flakes drizzled down as we congregated at the foot of the citadel, the historic and more modern buildings a backdrop for our brisk Christmas pageant. (Check out T.'s great photos!) The program went fairly well, but K.'s toes froze, so we hurried back to the base. We three Americans did not mount camels and follow a star that night, but instead we were drafted to make dinner. It became quite the laugh-capade as we attempted to make breakfast-for-supper, discovering along the way that we were missing some of the key ingredients. But no one starved, so we chalked it up as a success and washed the dishes.

Wanna know what we did that evening? Good, I'll tell you...in a few moments!

The next morning, we once more drank in the beauty of the snow-frosted town, then we walked to the citadel for a quick tour before catching a maxi-taxi (minibus) to Targu Mures. An hour later, we stepped into downtown Targu Mures and began a photo rampage, posing with the snowmen and moose on skis that decorated the city centre. I am afraid we are guilty of making more innocent Romanians smile as our antics caught them off-guard. Certainly we were grinning, and perhaps we were contagious with the smile-flu!

Before anyone could accuse us, though, we ducked into a basement restaurant where we shared a couple meals of traditional Romanian food, sampling as many dishes as we could. Too soon I had to put my friends in a taxi and watch them drive off to the airport, thanking the Lord for the gift of their coming.

The gift of coming. That is what we will be celebrating this week, the gift of God: the coming of His Son, Jesus. If Jesus had not come, we would not be able to truly know God. We would not be able to have true joy. We would not have any reason to tear apart a sober society with riots of delight.

Fortunately, we have a reason for joy--joy to the world! After I watched my friends fade into traffic, I attended a children's musical near Targu Mures, written and prepared by some of my friends. The children sang about the gift of Jesus' coming, and I was deeply moved by their joy. I smiled at their simply delight, not only on stage, but just in life. For instance, one of the little girls saw me and grabbed her mom, saying, "Look, Mommie, Zorro!" She remembered a minute-and-a-half lesson three months ago when I had dressed up like Zorro, and she was happy to see me!

The gift of coming.

I know, few of you will read this. It is long, and who cares about the play-by-play of someone else's life? But let me tell you what the girls and I did on Friday night. We talked about Jesus, about what God had done in our lives, about the Church--about living life "on the edge" and staying on the "edge." For an hour or two, well past midnight, we delved deeper. When was the last time you did that? When was the last time you did not try to fill a silent or boring moment with a game or television or a text message or useless chatter, but instead talked about Jesus?

My favorite thing is not a thing at all; it is a person--Jesus! There is nothing else I would rather discuss. I love being sharpened and encouraged by other Christians! What a pleasure it is to recall God's goodness, His blessings in our lives! How wonderful to recall the lessons we have learned, and the beauty we have seen!

My friends were enraptured by the beauty of Romania, as am I. Yet we are even more awed by the beauty of the greatest story every told, of which the Christmas Story is an integral part.

The gift of coming:

Today I came to Balan, and I know that among the hours of hard work here this week, God's gifts will touch many hearts.

My friends came last week, just when I needed a breath of fresh air and a blast of laughter-recharge to a trampled soul. I think they are the first people to come to Sighisoara expressly to visit me (not passing through on their way elsewhere)--what a blessing to have friends like that!

Christmas is coming, because Jesus came. And don't forget: Jesus is coming! May you, too, join us in celebrating the gift of coming! Merry Christmas!

A Rose From Home

A Rose From Home

My Story (As prepared for my church congregation this spring--2009)


I have a story to tell you. I am the main character, but the story is not about me. I have traveled several parts of the world, but my adventure has been closer to home. I am twenty-six years old. My story begins like many of yours…

I grew up going to church. I had been born into a family who labeled themselves “Christian,” in a country that labels itself “Christian.” Every Sunday found me attending a worship service and Sunday school in a mainline denomination church. I served as an acolyte, attended Vacation Bible School, helped my dad count and record the offering money, sang in the youth choir, was a leader in the youth group, and occasionally served as liturgist. Baptized as an infant, I was confirmed at the age of twelve, thus becoming an “official” member of the church. Then, hurt by the church, my family left to find another.

Have you ever been hurt by the Church?

After months of searching, we settled into a very large independent church. Things were different there, and I was quickly welcomed and at home among new friends that truly had a passion for Jesus. The Word of God was taught boldly from the pulpit, and I was introduced to a missions-aware lifestyle. So it was with regret that I said goodbye only a couple of years later to move with my family to another church. I purposely remained aloof, not wanting to make new friendships before I left for college a year later. Besides, I was loosing my faith—or so I thought—and I didn’t want anyone to know. I was asking scary questions like “Is there really a God?” and, if so, “Is He the Christian God?” and “Would I be Christian if I had been born in another part of the world?”

Have you ever asked yourself unsettling questions about what you believe?

So I headed into college under a cloud of confusion that only worsened for the next two years. Though I didn’t know what I believed anymore, I continued to go to church every Sunday, and to help lead worship in chapel. Most importantly, even during this questioning, I continued my morning habit of daily study of the Bible. I had begun at age twelve, reading at first a chapter per day, then ten minutes each morning, then an half-hour, and so on. So, only by the grace of the very God I doubted, I remained anchored in His Word and in His community, though I felt like a fake most of the time. Since then I have learned that “fake” is the worst insult the world can give us; that is why the label of “hypocrite” is so offensive.

Have you ever felt like a fake?

Six weeks with missionaries in South Africa followed by a year in France began to teach me what life with God is all about. I began rebuilding my faith, this time it belonged to me, in contrast to me borrowing the faith of my parents, church, or anyone else. In my parent’s basement in 2003, on either Christmas Eve or New Year’s Eve, I invited Jesus to live in me; perhaps I had done so before, but I didn’t recall—but since 2003, I have never forgotten that moment. Unfortunately, nothing changed. I continued to do my best to act like a Christian, as I had done for so long.

Have you ever found yourself “doing your best” to be a good person, or to act like a Christian?

Though I did not realize it at the time, I was quenching the Spirit, even though I had welcomed Him into my life. During the next few years, the LORD continued to nurture me, and slowly things began to change. Several tough months in Idaho birthed my prayer-life. I spent three years being humbled in a job that was my informal seminary training. In 2007, a short stint in Mexico helped me to see things as they were, and not long afterward, I was baptized by immersion. No baptism of any kind can save a lost soul—only Jesus can do that. However, this baptism was an important covenant between me and God, symbolizing not only my death and resurrection with Jesus and my public profession of faith, but it also my life change, the beginning of my bearing fruit. “For each tree is known by its own fruit…”according to Luke 6:44. During the past year and a half, the LORD has provided me with an informal pastoral internship in my church, teaching me every aspect of discipleship. Simultaneously, I have been studying unceasing prayer and worship. I am now very different than I was five years ago.

In the Book of Acts (which tells the story of the earliest years of the Church) every time a person decided to follow Christ, two things took place—though not always in the same order. Each person experienced a life change, which I call the “baptism of repentance,” as well as the indwelling of the Holy Spirit, which I call the “baptism of the Spirit.” Looking back, I realize that the Holy Spirit was living in me in 2003, but it wasn’t until I surrendered everything to God, as represented by my immersion, that I allowed the Spirit to have His way in me and transform my life. “I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now life in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me. (Galatians 2:20)”

Have you invited Jesus to live in you? Have you allowed the Spirit to transform your life?

I tell you this story for two reasons. First, I tell this story in order to boast in the LORD! May God our Father get all praise and glory forever! Second, I tell this story because it is relevant to you. Likely you have heard that I am leaving the country: I have let my light shine before you; please let your light shine within the Church, too! This congregation is in revival, and as each of you allows the Spirit to revive you, the entire Church will be revived and utterly transformed, to the glory of the Most High God. And for His glory is the reason He created us; the reason He sent His only Son to reveal Himself to us; the reason He became Sin for us and died for us on the cross—while we were still sinners; and the reason that He conquered death and offered us eternal life with Him.

It will cost you a lot—in fact, it will cost you everything, your very life. But if you have never surrendered your life to Christ Jesus, if you have never invited Him to send His Spirit into you and to transform your life, then do it right now. Just let go of everything to which you are desperately clinging; stop trying to do it yourself! This is the very reason you are still breathing in this physical life—God has been delaying His judgment of this sinful world because He is waiting for you—2 Peter 3:9 says He wants none to perish!

If you have already invited the Spirit into your life, then live like it! Bear fruit! Anyone and everyone who meets you or knows you or sees you or hears you should know immediately and clearly that Jesus the Christ lives in you and loves them! That is how stark the contrast should be between your life and the world around you!

Have you immersed yourself in God’s Word and in prayer in the last twenty-four hours?

If you call yourself a follower of Christ, then there is no excuse for not communing with Him daily! Anchor yourself in the Word! God has revealed Himself to us through His Son, Jesus Christ, and the Bible is a complete and accurate record of that revelation. And prayer is humbly letting Him love us. Let Him love you! God doesn’t need us, but He wants us! God doesn’t need us to live for Him—He wants to live in and through us! Let us love and fellowship with one another, even when you disagree! Pray for each other—the names in the church directory are a great place to start! Church, we are not only the Body of Christ, but we are the Bride of Christ. We have allowed ourselves to get bedraggled and stained—now let us stand to the glory of God! Let’s let Him purify us, restore us, and love us!

My dear Brothers and Sisters, if you have ever once been blessed by God our Father at work in me, then I urge you, please, take seriously His desire to love and work in you, beyond anything you can ask or imagine! I have told you the beginning of my story—may it end in glory to the Father, in the Name of Jesus, by way of His Spirit.

Now, what is your story?