Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Dreading a Day


(Location: My house in the village of C., Romania, at 3:00pm on November 1st. Our time changed yesterday for Daylight Savings. If yours has not changed yet, make sure you know when it does!)

Do you ever wake up in the morning dreading the day that is coming? Very rarely does that happen to me, though I know others feel that way many mornings. However, when I woke up today, I was kind of feeling that way, because I was feeling ill. A teasing sore-throat that came and went a couple of times last week almost made me lose my voice yesterday, and by this morning it had sunk into my chest and was joined by a headache.

What a blessing! Today is my day off, so all I had to do was get through a French lesson and and English lesson, and then I could rest. I have been praying all day, and the Lord pulled me through the teaching hours, and now I feel much better. Moreover, I have been able to work on the computer tasks I wanted to tackle anyway. It has been a great, relaxing day! I moved up a notch in my village survival plan, too, for I purchased a pot with which I can heat water or food on my wood stove, and I have been nursing my body with tea today. The LORD is faithful!

You see, nearly losing my voice yesterday did not stop me then either. I prayed and prayed, because I needed to preach a sermon before I lost my voice. The Lord taught me powerful things from John 6, and I needed to be able to share them. Of course, the Lord was faithful, and I was able to preach in Romanian in the Gypsy church I was visiting alone. I recently heard a great sermon on this story of Jesus feeding the five thousand, but this weekend God gave me new insights. He showed me that there are three types of people in the story: Jesus, the disciples, and the people. Since we are not Jesus, we are either disciples or people. If we are disciples, we have two choices. We can look at the world from a human perspective, like Philip did, focusing on the impossible, on what we do not have, on our need. Or, like Andrew, we can give everything we have to the Lord, small though it may be, and trust Him to do the miracle! If we are not disciples living with Jesus, then we are of the people, and we, too, have a decision to make. Either we spend all of our days begging someone to give us more bread that we eat today and is gone tomorrow, or we turn to Jesus, the Bread of Life, and live eternal life with Him. If we make the latter choice, we are choosing to become disciples.

That Gypsy worship service made my day yesterday, but it was not the only highlight in that village of V. last week. (This is not the V. where I hope to live, but the other one that our ministry team works in each week.) As we are trying to make a roster of the kids and families we work with, we have realized that V.'s layout and population is overwhelming; there are not real addresses or roads. So, last Thursday, I climbed a great hill with fifteen or twenty of the kids, and we sat together in the sinking sunlight drawing a map of the village from above. It was so much fun! The map may not be great, but it is a start, and it was fun to be with the kids. Would you believe they were sledding without snow? They had a small cart with four wheels they had built, and they were also using empty two liter bottles to sit on and slide down the grassy slope! What a great idea!

As far as the other village of V. goes (where I hope to live), I got to visit there again last Wednesday. I had thought we had agreed that I would not preach every time, however, word was out that the "pope" was coming back to preach at 5pm, so again I presented God's Word in the five-hundred-year-old church building. It was a very nice visit, with some promise for the future that I will describe more if it pans out. Please continue to pray for each of these communities. The pastor in the community above is quite ill, and in this village, not a single person could tell me that "King David" was the greatest king of Israel when I asked! There is a great need for the living Word of God!

So many blessings! I wish I could write more often so you do not get swamped with everything in one post each week. I hope to post a picture with this, showing the village of C. as I came home last night. I have not spent much time in C. since my return to Romania, which has been nice from a commuting standpoint. By the way, that is something else the Lord is working out; I will fill you in as it becomes more concrete. I do, however, enjoy my time in C., like last night when once again I went to the neighbor's to buy milk, or like when I get a good fire going in my wood stove and find embers still glowing in the morning.

Another picture I want you to imagine is the following. After our last program on Saturday, several of the children were still milling about as we waited for one of our collegues who was talking to a parent. As they were already climbing on the back of the truck, I organized an activity of trust falls, where you fall on command into the waiting arms of your peers. This became popular very quickly, and we did it with all of the kids (I would say that all the kids who remained were twelve or under; the bigger kids were all gone). Naturally, my Belgian coworked decided that she, too, wanted to fall, surely more trusting because my adult arms would be among the first to ensure that her petit frame was caught securely. After that, we convinced our other Swiss collegue to fall, and though she was much taller and thus a little heaver, we had no trouble catching her, either. By now you can imagine what the children were chanting--my name! Now most of you know that I am about 6'2'', and a formidable weight for any ten-year-old to catch. My Belgian collegue voiced her concerns about catching me, which of course did not reassure me much, but how could I not do what I had convinced everyone else to do? So yes, I, too fell . . . and they caught me! No problem at all! It just goes to show; we are stronger when we work together. Remember that, Church! If we all stand shoulder-to-shoulder, we can bear anything for the glory of God!

What else? Well, I voted by absentee ballot this weekend. Please do not forget to vote on November 2 if you are an American. I am as cynical as anyone when it comes to politics, but I promise you that your vote will have NO IMPACT WHATSOEVER if you do not vote. Pray, do some research and cast a ballot. I hated the time an energy that was required to vote from Romania, but it is my privilege and responsibility as a Christian American. This is an important election for several reasons, both on a congressional level, as well as a local level. Our prayers and our actions go hand-in-hand to create the values that shape the laws and the land of the United States of America, which in turn influences the ENTIRE world.

I hope you smile to learn that when I scanned my ballot onto the computer at my neighbor's house, the door latch broke when I went to leave, and I was trapped in his house for an half-hour or forty-five minutes before we managed to get the door open. Sure, I could have climbed out the window--he did several times to work on the door from the outside, but I was enjoying the fellowship with my friend and trying to help open the door. It reminded me of life, in fact. Do you ever have a "door" in your life that you really want to go through, but no matter how hard you try, it just will not open? I have learned that it is always better to wait until the Lord opens it for you. Forcing your way into something usually means you find yourself in the wrong place at the wrong time, for a lot of headaches and heartaches.

Oh, and how could I forget? I had an unexpected but wonderful trip to Cluj-Napoca last weekend. Maybe I already wrote about it, but I am still enjoying the memory of it. (We took one Swiss visitor to the Targu Mures airport and then picked up another Swiss blessing from the Cluj airport.) The Lord has given me the privilege of living near several wonderful persons in a very beautiful land, and I have enjoyed high-quality conversations with several of those persons this past week. In fact, I have been blessed beyond measure since my return to Romania, and I am riding high on a wave of the joy of the Lord.

Please pray for a youth program we have started doing on Friday evenings. It is a huge challenge for us, as we are having trouble finding the time to prepare for it in the midst of all of our children's programs. Besides, several of the youth who come enjoy acting like knuckleheads, which requires extra grace from the Lord on our part. Nevertheless, there is a great need and lots of potential, so if the Lord taps you on the shoulder, come lend us a hand.

Hopefully this gives you enough to read until next time I write. I am happy to report that not only have I now caught up on my blog, but also on my emails. Soon I will try to catch up on posting my photos, and that means that everything should be accessible for you. By the way, in case you were concerned, the protests in Bucharest were a long way from me, and they were pretty normal for a European country. Please do continue to pray for me though, and for the Church in Romania and the Church in America, and for the persons and peoples I mention in my blog. I hope you can tell how regularly I pray for you, and if you have specific prayer requests, please do not hesitate to email me.

The LORD is faithful! Cling to that! Know that! Live that!

I bless you in the Name of Jesus!

A Rose From Home

A Rose From Home

My Story (As prepared for my church congregation this spring--2009)


I have a story to tell you. I am the main character, but the story is not about me. I have traveled several parts of the world, but my adventure has been closer to home. I am twenty-six years old. My story begins like many of yours…

I grew up going to church. I had been born into a family who labeled themselves “Christian,” in a country that labels itself “Christian.” Every Sunday found me attending a worship service and Sunday school in a mainline denomination church. I served as an acolyte, attended Vacation Bible School, helped my dad count and record the offering money, sang in the youth choir, was a leader in the youth group, and occasionally served as liturgist. Baptized as an infant, I was confirmed at the age of twelve, thus becoming an “official” member of the church. Then, hurt by the church, my family left to find another.

Have you ever been hurt by the Church?

After months of searching, we settled into a very large independent church. Things were different there, and I was quickly welcomed and at home among new friends that truly had a passion for Jesus. The Word of God was taught boldly from the pulpit, and I was introduced to a missions-aware lifestyle. So it was with regret that I said goodbye only a couple of years later to move with my family to another church. I purposely remained aloof, not wanting to make new friendships before I left for college a year later. Besides, I was loosing my faith—or so I thought—and I didn’t want anyone to know. I was asking scary questions like “Is there really a God?” and, if so, “Is He the Christian God?” and “Would I be Christian if I had been born in another part of the world?”

Have you ever asked yourself unsettling questions about what you believe?

So I headed into college under a cloud of confusion that only worsened for the next two years. Though I didn’t know what I believed anymore, I continued to go to church every Sunday, and to help lead worship in chapel. Most importantly, even during this questioning, I continued my morning habit of daily study of the Bible. I had begun at age twelve, reading at first a chapter per day, then ten minutes each morning, then an half-hour, and so on. So, only by the grace of the very God I doubted, I remained anchored in His Word and in His community, though I felt like a fake most of the time. Since then I have learned that “fake” is the worst insult the world can give us; that is why the label of “hypocrite” is so offensive.

Have you ever felt like a fake?

Six weeks with missionaries in South Africa followed by a year in France began to teach me what life with God is all about. I began rebuilding my faith, this time it belonged to me, in contrast to me borrowing the faith of my parents, church, or anyone else. In my parent’s basement in 2003, on either Christmas Eve or New Year’s Eve, I invited Jesus to live in me; perhaps I had done so before, but I didn’t recall—but since 2003, I have never forgotten that moment. Unfortunately, nothing changed. I continued to do my best to act like a Christian, as I had done for so long.

Have you ever found yourself “doing your best” to be a good person, or to act like a Christian?

Though I did not realize it at the time, I was quenching the Spirit, even though I had welcomed Him into my life. During the next few years, the LORD continued to nurture me, and slowly things began to change. Several tough months in Idaho birthed my prayer-life. I spent three years being humbled in a job that was my informal seminary training. In 2007, a short stint in Mexico helped me to see things as they were, and not long afterward, I was baptized by immersion. No baptism of any kind can save a lost soul—only Jesus can do that. However, this baptism was an important covenant between me and God, symbolizing not only my death and resurrection with Jesus and my public profession of faith, but it also my life change, the beginning of my bearing fruit. “For each tree is known by its own fruit…”according to Luke 6:44. During the past year and a half, the LORD has provided me with an informal pastoral internship in my church, teaching me every aspect of discipleship. Simultaneously, I have been studying unceasing prayer and worship. I am now very different than I was five years ago.

In the Book of Acts (which tells the story of the earliest years of the Church) every time a person decided to follow Christ, two things took place—though not always in the same order. Each person experienced a life change, which I call the “baptism of repentance,” as well as the indwelling of the Holy Spirit, which I call the “baptism of the Spirit.” Looking back, I realize that the Holy Spirit was living in me in 2003, but it wasn’t until I surrendered everything to God, as represented by my immersion, that I allowed the Spirit to have His way in me and transform my life. “I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now life in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me. (Galatians 2:20)”

Have you invited Jesus to live in you? Have you allowed the Spirit to transform your life?

I tell you this story for two reasons. First, I tell this story in order to boast in the LORD! May God our Father get all praise and glory forever! Second, I tell this story because it is relevant to you. Likely you have heard that I am leaving the country: I have let my light shine before you; please let your light shine within the Church, too! This congregation is in revival, and as each of you allows the Spirit to revive you, the entire Church will be revived and utterly transformed, to the glory of the Most High God. And for His glory is the reason He created us; the reason He sent His only Son to reveal Himself to us; the reason He became Sin for us and died for us on the cross—while we were still sinners; and the reason that He conquered death and offered us eternal life with Him.

It will cost you a lot—in fact, it will cost you everything, your very life. But if you have never surrendered your life to Christ Jesus, if you have never invited Him to send His Spirit into you and to transform your life, then do it right now. Just let go of everything to which you are desperately clinging; stop trying to do it yourself! This is the very reason you are still breathing in this physical life—God has been delaying His judgment of this sinful world because He is waiting for you—2 Peter 3:9 says He wants none to perish!

If you have already invited the Spirit into your life, then live like it! Bear fruit! Anyone and everyone who meets you or knows you or sees you or hears you should know immediately and clearly that Jesus the Christ lives in you and loves them! That is how stark the contrast should be between your life and the world around you!

Have you immersed yourself in God’s Word and in prayer in the last twenty-four hours?

If you call yourself a follower of Christ, then there is no excuse for not communing with Him daily! Anchor yourself in the Word! God has revealed Himself to us through His Son, Jesus Christ, and the Bible is a complete and accurate record of that revelation. And prayer is humbly letting Him love us. Let Him love you! God doesn’t need us, but He wants us! God doesn’t need us to live for Him—He wants to live in and through us! Let us love and fellowship with one another, even when you disagree! Pray for each other—the names in the church directory are a great place to start! Church, we are not only the Body of Christ, but we are the Bride of Christ. We have allowed ourselves to get bedraggled and stained—now let us stand to the glory of God! Let’s let Him purify us, restore us, and love us!

My dear Brothers and Sisters, if you have ever once been blessed by God our Father at work in me, then I urge you, please, take seriously His desire to love and work in you, beyond anything you can ask or imagine! I have told you the beginning of my story—may it end in glory to the Father, in the Name of Jesus, by way of His Spirit.

Now, what is your story?