Saturday, June 5, 2010

God's Victories








































































Location: Attic bedroom in hosts' house, Oradea, Romania (about 6:15pm on the 24th of May)

(I have been having trouble getting internet access, so please be patient as you wait for email replies and blog posts. Tomorrow I am off toward Sighisoara, so hopefully from there I can post this one!)

Today is Monday, and in Romania, it is a holiday due to yesterday being Pentecost. The holiday was nice for me, because I am tired after a long weekend. Let me tell you a little bit about it.

Some of you know my friend M., from Hunedoara. She was truly a Godsend this weekend. She traveled nearly five hours by bus to Oradea Saturday after teaching public school all week and while nursing a rotten cold. She skipped her weekend continuing education classes to do so. Then she learned that the buses would not run on Sunday because of the holiday, thwarting her return plans.

Good-naturedly, she dove right in, doing all she could to absorb everything I told her in preparation for the family workshop we would be leading in about two hours. She had come to translate, but her expertise and experience working with persons with disabilities made her extremely valuable in helping to transport my host on his first outing with his broken leg. (Hopefully I can post a few pictures with this of how we transported S. in the back of a car and helped him and his wheelchair up and down a narrow staircase at home and a shoddy gangplank at a construction site!) At the last minute, because the weather turned out to be beautiful, we had the meeting outside of town next to a lake, 17 kilometers from Oradea.

I am so thankful M. was there to help me put things in perspective. Compared to my plans, most of the evening would have to be considered a complete failure! My weeks of preparation and communication seemed in vain as several things beyond our control mixed with cultural differences and human nature to challenge us at every turn. I went for a walk with Jesus away from the thirty people or so who were enjoying the lakeside grill-out after my house of cards had fallen flat. As I stood by the lake praying and thinking about the evening that was not yet over, I was awestruck. A storm was brewing in the sunset, churning clouds into gorgeous towers of shadows and power. A deer streaked across the meadow, perhaps startled by the shepherd's dogs barking amid the bleating sheep I could not see. Those noises were joined by the call of a cuckoo and other birds, to a back drop of cricket- or grasshopper-song. The breeze pushed at me affectionately, knocking off the disappointment that threatened me, and I watched birds dip and dive in the lingering light. The sun was majestic, unmoved by the rain I could see falling on the horizon. The tall grass and reeds kept me company, as if listening with me to the wisdom of my God.

As always, I had given the evening completely to the Lord; M. and I had prayed together again before we started, recommitting it to His glory yet again. During our time by the lake, He reminded me that He does not make mistakes, and that He chose me and M. specifically as His vessels for that evening's work, even knowing ahead of time what would result and the difficulty we would have. In fact, the evening was not a failure; it was a glorious victory for the Lord! Even before we failed, He had planned to use it for His glory, and He did. I saw fathers taking their children around the lake in the rowboat. Another dad reminded his toddler of creation songs as they strolled through the tall grass. Families were fellowshipping together and sharing a feast (what were other families doing on a Saturday night?)! A young man was playing the guitar, other folks were conversing. A soccer ball was kicked around and I saw some of the young girls frolicking around in whatever game they had invented.

And how much more was God doing behind the scenes! What did He do that night for His glory that I will never know about?

In fact, I enjoyed myself that evening. I always enjoy a good challenge, and even the vehicles getting stuck in the mud just added to the adventure. Besides, as I stood and looked around at the land to which the Lord has brought me, I could not help but be grateful. Stunned by the beauty of the hills and trees and meadows and skies and wildlife, I just wanted to drink it in! Rather than a possible "failure" discouraging me from the hard months ahead of me in a foreign place, the Lord's majesty encouraged me and whet my appetite for more of His life in this land! Many of you were praying for us; thank you!!!

Perhaps you do not have time to read more right now, but would you believe that the above is just the beginning of the story of our weekend adventures?

By Sunday morning, we were all moving a little lethargically after our evening together the night before. Finally, M. and I sat down to breakfast together in the house of our hosts, and just as I poured milk on my cereal, looking forward to catching up with my friend now that we had a moment for conversation, my name was called from upstairs. I left my muesli soaking and skipped upstairs, to hear, "J., you are the only one who can help me." That was at 9:35am.

Soon I was on my way to the house of a man I had never met (I had met his wife and a few of their children the previous Sunday; they are missionaries from South Africa) with a bathroom scale. My instructions were to help them weight their baggage, take it and one of their children to the trainstation before their 10:00am train departed, and to bring their rabbit back to the house. Yes, their rabbit. Would you expect anything less in one of my weekend adventures? Just wait, it gets better.

I found the house and its seven-person family and set to work, quickly realizing they would never make it by 10:00, especially since virtually every one of their suitcases was too heavy for the plane they would later catch. It turned out that their train was at 11:00; in fact, the same train M. was supposed to catch. So I called her and apologized that I would be unable to go with her to the train station; instead, could she meet me there?

Eventually I found myself and some of the men in the family (and a neat friend from Pakistan) climbing over industrial piping and about six sets of train rails to get eight or nine suitcases to the train platform from the backside of the station. Then I momentarily left them to meet up with M., who ended up learning that the next train (an hour later) would be a better option for her. After we saw the family and their luggage installed on the train, I (and S., my new Pakistani friend) took Maria to the car to introduce her to the rabbit, which I had locked in the car loose with breakfast still in a skillet, a turtle, and some sort of mouse or gerbil, all which had been left by the missionary family. I know it will not surprise you that not long after M. and I returned with this zoo to the house, she and I and one of the daughters in the household found ourselves running through the neighborhood streets chasing a large while rabbit!

By then, I decided to try to eat my breakfast before M. had to go to the train station. As I scarfed my muesli, I again heard my name called from upstairs! This time I took my cereal with me! Now a new plan unfolded. Why not take M. home by car?

Yes, this weekend, I ended up driving more than all other times I have lived abroad, combined. With S.'s broken leg, I was the only one in the family with a driver's license. The car belonged to a friend, but we had permission to use it, and all Romanian cars have to have liability insurance on them. So this once-nice Volkswagon became my fearless steed for the weekend. The sunroof mostly closed, and all the doors eventually opened, but you never knew if you had to open them from inside or outside. The car alarm went off unexpectedly while the car was parked, playing games with the emergancy flashers that would signal several times without warning as I drove, over and over again in intervals. The drivers' window would not open, but the rest did; the back hatch would hardly close. The air-conditioning no longer worked, but the heat would not stop. I think it still had three hubcaps. It was a good car! And to make it even cooler, I decided to spray mud up both sides of the front on Saturday night, to give it an off-roading look.

Seriously, I was grateful for the car, for it served us well. It took S. and his broken leg (and all our gear piled on top of him) to the family picnic and back. Then it took me and M. from Oradea to Hunedoara via Deva, and then back up toward Cluj-Napoca through Alba Iulia and back to Oradea, in about 9 hours of driving on one tank of gas. The drive wove through breath-taking landscapes as I dodged car-eating potholes, over mountains and chasing the rain that we never caught. Neither did I hit the flock of sheep in the road, nor the enormous cows crossing the street in front of me. Even the hare that shot across my lane while I was streaking down the new interstate-highway outside of Cluj was spared. I outran the tour bus that chased me down switchback curves, and I navigated road-construction areas as I learned the signs. I parked at home early this morning and hit the sack, sleeping in a little before two of the teenagers in the house and I washed the car. I wish I had pictures--we had fun!

Anyway, it was a great adventure because God blessed me with more and more of His beautiful Romanian landscapes (including snow-dazzled mountains outside Hunedoara), as well as with an opportunity to discuss with M. our Spirit-led lives as Christians and to sharpen one another. We also laughed and laughed and laughed! An added blessing was getting to surprise another friend of ours in Hunedoara with a brief visit, and taking a rest-stop to eat a meal prepared by M.'s mom.

If you are still reading, you know by now the moral of the story. This weekend, which should have been a disappointment and failure in so many respects, was instead a time filled with blessings and beauty, with laughter and encouragement, with friends and families, with surprises and lessons, and grace and glory. You see, God's glory does not depend on my success. His work does not depend upon my work. Yet He chooses to use me and even my failures to accomplish His magnificent plans. This weekend, He also chose M., and though our obedience led us through tensions and obstacles and uncertainty and maybe even humiliation, I would do it all again!

How about you? Did He choose to work through you this weekend?

Did you let Him?

You still can!

A Rose From Home

A Rose From Home

My Story (As prepared for my church congregation this spring--2009)


I have a story to tell you. I am the main character, but the story is not about me. I have traveled several parts of the world, but my adventure has been closer to home. I am twenty-six years old. My story begins like many of yours…

I grew up going to church. I had been born into a family who labeled themselves “Christian,” in a country that labels itself “Christian.” Every Sunday found me attending a worship service and Sunday school in a mainline denomination church. I served as an acolyte, attended Vacation Bible School, helped my dad count and record the offering money, sang in the youth choir, was a leader in the youth group, and occasionally served as liturgist. Baptized as an infant, I was confirmed at the age of twelve, thus becoming an “official” member of the church. Then, hurt by the church, my family left to find another.

Have you ever been hurt by the Church?

After months of searching, we settled into a very large independent church. Things were different there, and I was quickly welcomed and at home among new friends that truly had a passion for Jesus. The Word of God was taught boldly from the pulpit, and I was introduced to a missions-aware lifestyle. So it was with regret that I said goodbye only a couple of years later to move with my family to another church. I purposely remained aloof, not wanting to make new friendships before I left for college a year later. Besides, I was loosing my faith—or so I thought—and I didn’t want anyone to know. I was asking scary questions like “Is there really a God?” and, if so, “Is He the Christian God?” and “Would I be Christian if I had been born in another part of the world?”

Have you ever asked yourself unsettling questions about what you believe?

So I headed into college under a cloud of confusion that only worsened for the next two years. Though I didn’t know what I believed anymore, I continued to go to church every Sunday, and to help lead worship in chapel. Most importantly, even during this questioning, I continued my morning habit of daily study of the Bible. I had begun at age twelve, reading at first a chapter per day, then ten minutes each morning, then an half-hour, and so on. So, only by the grace of the very God I doubted, I remained anchored in His Word and in His community, though I felt like a fake most of the time. Since then I have learned that “fake” is the worst insult the world can give us; that is why the label of “hypocrite” is so offensive.

Have you ever felt like a fake?

Six weeks with missionaries in South Africa followed by a year in France began to teach me what life with God is all about. I began rebuilding my faith, this time it belonged to me, in contrast to me borrowing the faith of my parents, church, or anyone else. In my parent’s basement in 2003, on either Christmas Eve or New Year’s Eve, I invited Jesus to live in me; perhaps I had done so before, but I didn’t recall—but since 2003, I have never forgotten that moment. Unfortunately, nothing changed. I continued to do my best to act like a Christian, as I had done for so long.

Have you ever found yourself “doing your best” to be a good person, or to act like a Christian?

Though I did not realize it at the time, I was quenching the Spirit, even though I had welcomed Him into my life. During the next few years, the LORD continued to nurture me, and slowly things began to change. Several tough months in Idaho birthed my prayer-life. I spent three years being humbled in a job that was my informal seminary training. In 2007, a short stint in Mexico helped me to see things as they were, and not long afterward, I was baptized by immersion. No baptism of any kind can save a lost soul—only Jesus can do that. However, this baptism was an important covenant between me and God, symbolizing not only my death and resurrection with Jesus and my public profession of faith, but it also my life change, the beginning of my bearing fruit. “For each tree is known by its own fruit…”according to Luke 6:44. During the past year and a half, the LORD has provided me with an informal pastoral internship in my church, teaching me every aspect of discipleship. Simultaneously, I have been studying unceasing prayer and worship. I am now very different than I was five years ago.

In the Book of Acts (which tells the story of the earliest years of the Church) every time a person decided to follow Christ, two things took place—though not always in the same order. Each person experienced a life change, which I call the “baptism of repentance,” as well as the indwelling of the Holy Spirit, which I call the “baptism of the Spirit.” Looking back, I realize that the Holy Spirit was living in me in 2003, but it wasn’t until I surrendered everything to God, as represented by my immersion, that I allowed the Spirit to have His way in me and transform my life. “I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now life in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me. (Galatians 2:20)”

Have you invited Jesus to live in you? Have you allowed the Spirit to transform your life?

I tell you this story for two reasons. First, I tell this story in order to boast in the LORD! May God our Father get all praise and glory forever! Second, I tell this story because it is relevant to you. Likely you have heard that I am leaving the country: I have let my light shine before you; please let your light shine within the Church, too! This congregation is in revival, and as each of you allows the Spirit to revive you, the entire Church will be revived and utterly transformed, to the glory of the Most High God. And for His glory is the reason He created us; the reason He sent His only Son to reveal Himself to us; the reason He became Sin for us and died for us on the cross—while we were still sinners; and the reason that He conquered death and offered us eternal life with Him.

It will cost you a lot—in fact, it will cost you everything, your very life. But if you have never surrendered your life to Christ Jesus, if you have never invited Him to send His Spirit into you and to transform your life, then do it right now. Just let go of everything to which you are desperately clinging; stop trying to do it yourself! This is the very reason you are still breathing in this physical life—God has been delaying His judgment of this sinful world because He is waiting for you—2 Peter 3:9 says He wants none to perish!

If you have already invited the Spirit into your life, then live like it! Bear fruit! Anyone and everyone who meets you or knows you or sees you or hears you should know immediately and clearly that Jesus the Christ lives in you and loves them! That is how stark the contrast should be between your life and the world around you!

Have you immersed yourself in God’s Word and in prayer in the last twenty-four hours?

If you call yourself a follower of Christ, then there is no excuse for not communing with Him daily! Anchor yourself in the Word! God has revealed Himself to us through His Son, Jesus Christ, and the Bible is a complete and accurate record of that revelation. And prayer is humbly letting Him love us. Let Him love you! God doesn’t need us, but He wants us! God doesn’t need us to live for Him—He wants to live in and through us! Let us love and fellowship with one another, even when you disagree! Pray for each other—the names in the church directory are a great place to start! Church, we are not only the Body of Christ, but we are the Bride of Christ. We have allowed ourselves to get bedraggled and stained—now let us stand to the glory of God! Let’s let Him purify us, restore us, and love us!

My dear Brothers and Sisters, if you have ever once been blessed by God our Father at work in me, then I urge you, please, take seriously His desire to love and work in you, beyond anything you can ask or imagine! I have told you the beginning of my story—may it end in glory to the Father, in the Name of Jesus, by way of His Spirit.

Now, what is your story?