Saturday, September 26, 2009

Heroes! (warning: this will be lengthy, but full of information!)
















Location: In a cemetery in the citadel in Sighisoara, Romania, about 1:00pm on Saturday, September 26.

Why am I in a cemetery?

So far, it is the closest thing I have found to a peaceful park where I can get away from the world below. Today is a day off, and I decided to use much of it for prayer. So I have been sitting here enjoying the singing birds, the first falling leaves, and the sunlight filtering through the trees. The Lord and I have been discussing you, as well as my future in Europe and beyond.

I very frequently pray for you. Most of you are probably on my prayer list, and I also try to pray for you each time you contact me via email. If you have a special request, or if you are afraid that your name might not be on my list, let me know! I will make sure to pray for you!

Thanks for praying for me. This week passed well. I have begun teaching on stage during our village programs. Our trips into the villages are very challenging--it is fun to be welcomed so enthusiastically, but all the while one knows that often the people are looking for free handouts of food or candy or anything else. My language classes are going well, especially now that I jumped to a little higher level. They are difficult, but I am learning! Work is settling down now as we complete some of the transition and begin to know each other better. Yesterday we discussed how we feel about the first two weeks, and what we need to be able to do our best work.

What does a typical day look like for me? Well, I spend the morning privately with the Lord in prayer and reading the Word (the Bible). Then I grab some muesli (like granola) for breakfast around 7:45am, and I head back upstairs for devotions at 8:15am (we take turns leading devotions). Our work starts about 9:00am, and most days that means cleaning or remodeling work around our living area/workspace. Sometimes I get to help out in our kindergarten. Yesterday, for example, we split A LOT of wood trying to prepare for winter's onslaught. Our four-story building will be heated only by a wood stove in the garage with radiators in the rooms. That is one thing I love about Romania: it is so old-fashioned and charming in many ways! You regularly see horses and carts on the roads or in the fields, people garden and farm by hand, or sometimes with the help of old tractors. Men give women, especially the elderly, their seats on the bus; women usually wear their hair quite long. People say hello in the streets, and they sit on their front steps or a porch and greet the neighbors. You can buy fresh fruits and vegetables in the market, or on the side of the road. Can you picture it?

In fact, maybe I already told you, but many of the gypsy villages are very similar to African tribal villages. Many of the children are half- or completely naked, and the people live in shacks and shanties, though of course it is not unusual to see satellite dishes perched on top. Sometimes they have to work hard to find clean water or enough food for their families.

But back to the day. After working hard for a couple of hours in the morning, I can hopefully find a little time to study Romanian (or go to class, depending on the day). Then I hurry to the dining room in time for a quick lunch before meeting the team upstairs to discuss the day's program. Half-an-hour later, we are en route to one of the villages, where we will play with the children (football or stamps or jewelry) while the truck is set up. Soon after, we will start our program with games and music, followed by short teaching lessons. After nearly two hours, we will say goodbye, debrief, and make it home in time for a little more work before dinner. We eat dinner about 7pm, and in the evenings we have more preparation to do as a team, or a team activity.

You can see that I spend a lot of time with our team (there are about ten of us). But I also get to spend some time with college students from America who help us out. Last night I had the privilege of joining one for dinner in town, and he and I had a great time of discussion and fellowship. Every time I have a conversation like that, I remember that I do not have to fully understand why I am in Europe, because each of those interactions was worth everything I have given up and endured to be here. May God get the glory!

You are worth it, too. That is why I love communicating with you, usually through email. Your emails are encouraging to me, and I like knowing how best to pray for you. I have been in contact with so many wonderful men and women of God--what a blessing! In addition to email, I have met wonderful people each place I go! Let me briefly describe some of them to you:

One man I met ministers to Muslims all over the world, despite the death-threats he has received; prayer and study is the backbone of his work, and he intentionally trains others how to become people of prayer, like Jesus.

One man is finally building a house for his family after he has lived in ten places over the past 12 years. He has frequently sacrificed his own mattress for someone else in need; this is a man who would literally give the shirt off his back so that others might know the love of Jesus!

One man was a taxi driver in Chicago for years, and he always welcomes you with a smile. From whatever position he is in, he will show you respect and love in the way the Jesus would. He cares for his elderly wife in such a gentle way that you know you are safe when you are with him!

Two young ladies, one with a handicap, laugh and laugh when they are together. They run camps for disabled children, and they have a vision to fight for rights for persons with disabilities in all of Romania, transforming the nation. They do not know how they will do it, but they are ready to follow Jesus as He leads them!

One young mother has poured herself and the love of Jesus into her work. She has worked with the same handful of handicapped young people year after year for many years. At the same time, she cares for her family and her church. It is a thankless job, but she is a hero to those young people, and to me!

One man moved to France more than twenty-five years ago, and he still lives and ministers there, raising his family among a people who often have no hope. I heard several people agree that his gentle character is more like that of Jesus than anyone else they know!

Another girl is the sister of a man of God confined to a wheelchair. She selflessly cares for her brother in anything he needs, and along with her church friends she ministers among persons with disabilities in Romania. Now she has decided to study physical therapy to be better equipped to touch people with the love of Jesus!

These are just a few of the people I have been honored to meet during the past four months. Maybe one of those mentioned above is you--maybe not. The truth is that my heros are usually unsung. If you are not on my blog, you are in my heart. I thank you for letting Jesus work through you. May each of us be a hero in someone else's eyes, thanks to the Holy Spirit living through us freely!

But like any good hero, we must be humble. I know that the majority of the persons who have influenced me never had any idea that they made an impression on me. So now it is my turn to do the same. I bought some items this morning that I need for winter here, and I replaced Waldo (my ballcap) with a Romanian fedora. I still will not blend in very well, but hopefully I will not stand out so much. Hopefully no one in Sighisoara will remember the lanky American who smiled through the streets one year, but hopefully they will have been forever transformed by the Jesus that lives in me. I hope the same for you, and I bless you in His holy Name!

A Rose From Home

A Rose From Home

My Story (As prepared for my church congregation this spring--2009)


I have a story to tell you. I am the main character, but the story is not about me. I have traveled several parts of the world, but my adventure has been closer to home. I am twenty-six years old. My story begins like many of yours…

I grew up going to church. I had been born into a family who labeled themselves “Christian,” in a country that labels itself “Christian.” Every Sunday found me attending a worship service and Sunday school in a mainline denomination church. I served as an acolyte, attended Vacation Bible School, helped my dad count and record the offering money, sang in the youth choir, was a leader in the youth group, and occasionally served as liturgist. Baptized as an infant, I was confirmed at the age of twelve, thus becoming an “official” member of the church. Then, hurt by the church, my family left to find another.

Have you ever been hurt by the Church?

After months of searching, we settled into a very large independent church. Things were different there, and I was quickly welcomed and at home among new friends that truly had a passion for Jesus. The Word of God was taught boldly from the pulpit, and I was introduced to a missions-aware lifestyle. So it was with regret that I said goodbye only a couple of years later to move with my family to another church. I purposely remained aloof, not wanting to make new friendships before I left for college a year later. Besides, I was loosing my faith—or so I thought—and I didn’t want anyone to know. I was asking scary questions like “Is there really a God?” and, if so, “Is He the Christian God?” and “Would I be Christian if I had been born in another part of the world?”

Have you ever asked yourself unsettling questions about what you believe?

So I headed into college under a cloud of confusion that only worsened for the next two years. Though I didn’t know what I believed anymore, I continued to go to church every Sunday, and to help lead worship in chapel. Most importantly, even during this questioning, I continued my morning habit of daily study of the Bible. I had begun at age twelve, reading at first a chapter per day, then ten minutes each morning, then an half-hour, and so on. So, only by the grace of the very God I doubted, I remained anchored in His Word and in His community, though I felt like a fake most of the time. Since then I have learned that “fake” is the worst insult the world can give us; that is why the label of “hypocrite” is so offensive.

Have you ever felt like a fake?

Six weeks with missionaries in South Africa followed by a year in France began to teach me what life with God is all about. I began rebuilding my faith, this time it belonged to me, in contrast to me borrowing the faith of my parents, church, or anyone else. In my parent’s basement in 2003, on either Christmas Eve or New Year’s Eve, I invited Jesus to live in me; perhaps I had done so before, but I didn’t recall—but since 2003, I have never forgotten that moment. Unfortunately, nothing changed. I continued to do my best to act like a Christian, as I had done for so long.

Have you ever found yourself “doing your best” to be a good person, or to act like a Christian?

Though I did not realize it at the time, I was quenching the Spirit, even though I had welcomed Him into my life. During the next few years, the LORD continued to nurture me, and slowly things began to change. Several tough months in Idaho birthed my prayer-life. I spent three years being humbled in a job that was my informal seminary training. In 2007, a short stint in Mexico helped me to see things as they were, and not long afterward, I was baptized by immersion. No baptism of any kind can save a lost soul—only Jesus can do that. However, this baptism was an important covenant between me and God, symbolizing not only my death and resurrection with Jesus and my public profession of faith, but it also my life change, the beginning of my bearing fruit. “For each tree is known by its own fruit…”according to Luke 6:44. During the past year and a half, the LORD has provided me with an informal pastoral internship in my church, teaching me every aspect of discipleship. Simultaneously, I have been studying unceasing prayer and worship. I am now very different than I was five years ago.

In the Book of Acts (which tells the story of the earliest years of the Church) every time a person decided to follow Christ, two things took place—though not always in the same order. Each person experienced a life change, which I call the “baptism of repentance,” as well as the indwelling of the Holy Spirit, which I call the “baptism of the Spirit.” Looking back, I realize that the Holy Spirit was living in me in 2003, but it wasn’t until I surrendered everything to God, as represented by my immersion, that I allowed the Spirit to have His way in me and transform my life. “I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now life in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me. (Galatians 2:20)”

Have you invited Jesus to live in you? Have you allowed the Spirit to transform your life?

I tell you this story for two reasons. First, I tell this story in order to boast in the LORD! May God our Father get all praise and glory forever! Second, I tell this story because it is relevant to you. Likely you have heard that I am leaving the country: I have let my light shine before you; please let your light shine within the Church, too! This congregation is in revival, and as each of you allows the Spirit to revive you, the entire Church will be revived and utterly transformed, to the glory of the Most High God. And for His glory is the reason He created us; the reason He sent His only Son to reveal Himself to us; the reason He became Sin for us and died for us on the cross—while we were still sinners; and the reason that He conquered death and offered us eternal life with Him.

It will cost you a lot—in fact, it will cost you everything, your very life. But if you have never surrendered your life to Christ Jesus, if you have never invited Him to send His Spirit into you and to transform your life, then do it right now. Just let go of everything to which you are desperately clinging; stop trying to do it yourself! This is the very reason you are still breathing in this physical life—God has been delaying His judgment of this sinful world because He is waiting for you—2 Peter 3:9 says He wants none to perish!

If you have already invited the Spirit into your life, then live like it! Bear fruit! Anyone and everyone who meets you or knows you or sees you or hears you should know immediately and clearly that Jesus the Christ lives in you and loves them! That is how stark the contrast should be between your life and the world around you!

Have you immersed yourself in God’s Word and in prayer in the last twenty-four hours?

If you call yourself a follower of Christ, then there is no excuse for not communing with Him daily! Anchor yourself in the Word! God has revealed Himself to us through His Son, Jesus Christ, and the Bible is a complete and accurate record of that revelation. And prayer is humbly letting Him love us. Let Him love you! God doesn’t need us, but He wants us! God doesn’t need us to live for Him—He wants to live in and through us! Let us love and fellowship with one another, even when you disagree! Pray for each other—the names in the church directory are a great place to start! Church, we are not only the Body of Christ, but we are the Bride of Christ. We have allowed ourselves to get bedraggled and stained—now let us stand to the glory of God! Let’s let Him purify us, restore us, and love us!

My dear Brothers and Sisters, if you have ever once been blessed by God our Father at work in me, then I urge you, please, take seriously His desire to love and work in you, beyond anything you can ask or imagine! I have told you the beginning of my story—may it end in glory to the Father, in the Name of Jesus, by way of His Spirit.

Now, what is your story?